Bear doesn't sleep. He is 2.5 now. Through out the day, he is a happy, healthy, well adjusted kid. Watching him, you wouldn't know that he’s only only sleeps in about 3-4 hour intervals, with about a 3-4 hr break every night from 1:30 to about 5 every morning. And even those sleeping hours are broken sleep. We’ve tried regimented schedules, w planned naps and what not. We’ve tried keeping him awake through out the days, w no naps in sight. We’ve tried baths right before, having it be totally silent, having white noise in the background, aromatherapy, letting him cry it out in his crib, letting him sleep w us or other places, cuddling him,  feeding him tons before bed, having him stop eating for hours before bed, different blankets, water bottles or milk, singing to him etc etc. And Im not talking for like a night or two-each thing for like a freakin month or two. And honestly. Im just so tired guys.

Sometimes it reads as growing pains, and he’s clawing his legs or arm. Sometimes it seems like its teething and he’s grabbing at his mouth. Lots of the time it seems like nightmares, where hes not fully awake or asleep, he’s just crying out in frustration, or repeating the same phrase over and over again like ‘i don't want too’ or ‘i no like it’. Then, some nights, he’s just incredibly awake. Not upset or anything-just laying there bored and awake, wanting to talk or play or just watch us. FOR HOURS.

And like-i know that no matter how many kids you have, your never fully a pro-but I'm not exactly a rookie either. My other kids went through crappy sleep phases where we tried things till they worked. But w Bear, its been 2.5 years of trying to figure it out and I'm getting to a point of feeling like there is no end in sight. We are talking some newborns sleep better then him, and sometimes I'm just so frustrated w him, and others times i feel so bad for him. But I'm just feeling a little discouraged as i write this at 2:08am.

I don't really know why I'm writing this other then to just vent. Bc I'm at the point where if one more person gives me crappy advice like they have the answer, and its so simple and not an actual licensed diagnosis of insomnia, i may sock them in the face bc we’ve tried it and bc I'm too sleep deprived to care what miracle thing they think they have or hear the judgement or shock or pity  in their voice.

Ultimately, I'm going to ask the dr about it next visit. Bc I'm there guys. They probably wont have answers. But i also don't think this is normal. Maybe he can handle the little bits of broken sleep, but i am in my 30’s and have a million other things I'm responsible for that mean i cant keep doing life like this. Right?!? SAY RIGHT YOU GUYS.