It is Saturday July 22nd. Our due date to meet our sweet baby boy is set for August 16th-and if he is anything like his sisters, we may see him even sooner then that. In the endless hours we've spent thinking, dreaming and imagining who our son is and all the wonders that he is going to bring to our lives, I realised that I haven't really sat down and told him his story. So, with my muddled memories and raw pregnancy emotions, I am going to attempt to do that now, at least once before he gets here. I hope he feels our boundless love for him, even if there aren't countless entries about him. The fact is, we have been so busy learning and getting prepared for him that we haven't made time to write them down. But now is the time, even if it is in between contractions and his letting me know he's almost ready to come home to us.

Son, you are so very wanted. When your sisters started getting older and we started to feel like it may be time to bring you here, we were both excited and nervous. We had so many things we wanted to give you when you came, and we were concerned that if you came now, we wouldn't be able to do so. You deserve the world, and we wanted to be able to offer you that and more. So we continued to think of you, pray about you and seek out answers as to whether now was the right time or not; we had to know that if you we were to bring you into this world sooner then we originally planned that the sacrifices you, and all of us would have to make would be 100% worth the things we'd all receive in return.

After waiting a while longer, we realised that our timeline for meeting you, although not always logical, was now-we wanted you and felt like you were just waiting for us to take a step of faith and get ready to bring you home our arms. Soon afterwards [around Christmas time], we found out that both of your Aunt's were pregnant with your cousins. We suspected that we were as well [as you were making me so sick] but rather then check and take a test just then, we wanted to do things a little differently this time. So we waited and spent all that time savouring and dreaming about you and imagining who you would be, when you would come, and making sure that you were healthy and safe before we got our hopes up [you gave us a few scares in that time ;)]. When the time finally came for us to take that test, we watched impatiently...to see indistinct lines that looked like they could go either way. Hah, from day one you have had kept us guessing. Eventually, the Dr. confirmed what we hoped for-you were there, healthy, and on your way and we couldn't have been more ecstatic.




After savouring this special time as a family, and getting your sisters prepared to meet you, the time came for us to tell the rest of our families. Even before you were born, you have brought joy to so many people by your mere existence. Your Grandparents, Aunts, Uncles, cousins and friends never once asked us if we were crazy or ridiculous for bringing you here-they just immediately shared our joy bc they have loved being a part of your sisters lives, and bc they could feel that you were going to be another someone special and unique to all who met you.


If I'm honest, everyone in our little family was expecting you to be a girl, except your oldest sister Addy. I would occasionally have little doubts in my heart and head, but immediately talk myself out of them bc I didn't want to be surprised, and I was also not sure I could be the best Mom to a boy, when all I've done is girls. That sounds silly now, but it was my reality back then. But Addy continually told us you would be a boy, and Daddy would go back and forth, until finally the date came for us to find out. After a long ultra sound with Daddy and I trying to get clear view of you through all the gray and black, our jaws dropped at the same moment the ultra sound tech said 'now, this will be your first time seeing this right here...' and pointed out your boyhood. In truth, you were so open and spread legged about it, that even if she hadn't said anything, we would have known what was up. We hope that you always have the same silly, open hearted nature and confidence in who you are and what you can bring to the table! We have no doubt that you will bring so many elements of wonder, surprise, energy and joy to our lives once your here.




All this said, throughout the last 9 months, you have continually challenged me and helped me to continue to learn, grow and improve as a parent [in both wonderful ways, and hard ones!] You've brought symptoms I'm used to, and ones that I have never experienced or expected in my life [namely constipation and back labour, since it seems you are sunny side up]. You have far and away smoked your sisters when it comes to activity-you never seem to be still or sleep, and you are always ready and willing to play, no matter what time it is. Speaking of which, your eager sisters have spent countless hours talking to you, singing and making up stories and songs for you. Isla in particular-which is ironic, bc when we came home and told your sisters you were a boy, Addy said 'I knew it!' and Isla said 'NO I want a girl!' And yet over the last several months of your growing, she has become your best friend and constant companion. She tells you everything and anything, and kisses and tickles you all the time. You have responded by kicking and high fiving when you hear her voice, more for her then anyone else. Addy can't wait to protect, hold and cuddle you as well-she always knew who you were, even before us. Already, you have a special relationship with each of them, and us and we can't wait to see that develop even more over time when your here in the flesh. Your Daddy can't wait to have you on his team and get to know you and share some likes and dislikes, and I can't wait to share Star Wars, and LOTR with you [your sisters love it, but not enough-I am going to indoctrinate you harder while your still young ;)





Again, I know being part of a family means lots of blessings and lots of sacrifices. I hope that even though I haven't had the time to write a million entries about how ecstatic we are to meet you, this small sacrifice will be made up a million times over by the sheer amount of love and support you will receive instead.

My son, we love you. Come home healthy soon-we are eagerly awaiting you with open arms.